Tired, sleepy. Tempted but reluctant to do anything about it.
hey my whole graving is back again. and i think it got worse. maybe cause its been a while....
anyway. think i'm gonna confirm my birthday party to be at my granny's place. buffet style. don't think going to have a theme. cause don't think many will follow it. and its hard to come up with an interesting one. or anyone of you have got any ideas? i;ve got some in mind. and something just popped in. but its mission impossible... nearly la. haha. anyway i think if i go ahead with it i might just be the one who suffer the most in the end.
since i have no boyfriends to help me out. i'm calling out to my dear friends to help me. k. if you all don't mind. my actual date is just a few weeks before exams. week 11 according to the nus calendar. hopefully people would still come.

wat do you all think of a dance floor? i wasnt thinking of those disco dancing or wat, but those internation professional, lovey dovey dance floor for all the lovers. itll be so grand and romantic. oh my wheres my prince charming now?! i need you!! haha.

balloons - pink and white. but truth to say if i wanna have balloons and plan to do some romantic stuff with it i'll have to hold the whole thing in the afternoon day time. if not who can see and appreciate the whole plan?

dress code.. can't think of any at the moment. anyway i can't imagine myself on that day too. can't imagine myself being pretty and nice leh.
sigh. anyway don't think i can fulfill my wish and fit into that pink top koko bought for me. its gonna be kept in that shrine for some more months or maybe years or maybe forever. ARGH!!! NO!!!

candle light dinners? NOPE. too big a group liao.
bikini party? haha. i won't be wearing one tats for sure. but that'll be cool in a pub i mean.
an all girls' night!!!haha. then i'll have another all guys' night. so it'll be me and only me among all the guys. anyway sad to say... no offense, but i realised i've not that many handsome guys among my close friends. to put it more frankly. none of the high grades. sigh. sigh. sorry.
GAY and LES night!!
DRAMA KINGS AND QUEENS!
colour coding for each group of friends
ethnic groups party. we have the tamils sarong, the chinese cheong sum, the european pom pom dress, the japanese kimono, the korean.. wow cool. but i think in the end i'll have all coming as just a SINGAPOREAN. haha.

just wanted something special. maybe its no longer special the moment i decided to throw a party cause everyone has done that. sigh. why go thru all these trouble? cause its once in a lifetime when we turn 21. but its also once in a lifetime when we turn 22, or 23 or 10 or 11.....